Ketentuan atau Plilihan?

Adakah iainya satu ketentuan atau pilihan? Sekiranya itu adalah pilihan .. emm tertanya-tanya adakah diriku telah membuat pilihan yang tidak tepat?

People keep saying there is something behind that. Yeah ... there is a reason behind everything. Nothing happen for no reason. But ... Gosh .. I just do not know how strong I could be .. .. how strong do I need to be.

Should I take it as my mistake? If yes .. then??? what is next? Correct the mistake? How to do so?

Arggghhh .... this few days I just can not be alone. All the bad and weird thinking will come into my mind. It is quite scarry...

A short talk to the person whom I stay in her vomb for about 9 months calm me down. Feel like the spirit of her is inside me.

1320 hour

Attended a meeting to defend my proposal. Thank God ... the committee approve it. It might need some touch up but I'm glad my pet paper work has been approved. Somehow it helps to ease some of the bitter for teh past couple of weeks.

Thanks to Allah.