YES I WILL .. Indeed

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe inAnd I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

ANY IDEA .. SUGGESTION???

Anyone out there could throw me idea on how to make an abbreviation out from this ... combine these few words become one single word ...

Tubing Resistance Training Program for Elderly with Type 2 Diabetes ...

Anyone .. ada idea ??? singkatan bagi perkara di atas?? Beberapa perkataan di atas digabungkan menjadi satu perkataan .. yang senang disebut dan sedap didengar .. ;-)

ISMAIL : The Last Days

I read this book back in early 2007, bought it after few weeks looking for it. I'm glad for the fact I read this book. Tun Dr Ismail, whom I hardly know who he is other than his name used to be my hostel name back in my university years.... thank to Ooi Kee Beng, the writer who narated Tun Ismail's life nicely.

Earlier on, when I read the first few chapters .. I was inspired by his determination in pursing complete his medical degree in Australia after about 3 years wasted in Singapore. How he led his life in Melbourne .. all the difficult times he had and how well he adapted with new life.. all of these gave me some encouragement. Well some of you know why this kind of things really inspired me that time .. hint hint .. early 2007 .. :-)

Towards the end of the book .. is about Tun Ismail's involvement in government administration .. I prefer to use this term rather than politic .. as he did not really want to get involve in politic but he did join as to fight for Tanah Melayu independency together with Tunku, Cheng Lock and few other country men. Tun Ismail is one of the founder of independent Tanah Melayu.

When asked to join UMNO, the condition he gave was .. only if UMNO fight for Tanah Melayu independency .. hence .. when UMNO led by Tunku, he became UMNO member. He resign from goverment due to health reason ... but has been brought back into government administration after the bloody 13th May happened. He returned into government as Home Minister ..and with Tun Razak (deputy premier that time) they managed the riot well.

When he wanted to resign as he promised his family to do so when the emergency has over ... Tun Razak asked him to stay ... and giving him a heavier task .. to be his deputy ... Tun Razak gonna be Malaysia premier that time as Tunku resigning. With full of responsibility he accepted the post.Both of them needed each other as Tun Razak and Tun Ismail were not in good health condition, they were suffering from leukemia and cancer respectively.

Tun Ismail .. from a medical doctor, he left his profesional job .. and became a countryman ,, not because of he wanted it to get name .. to get famous or to be honoured but due to his sense of responsibility.

Tun Ismail Bin Hj Abdurahman .. a reluctant politician devoted his life for his country name Malaysia. In fact he sort of abandon his own family to save many more families. To all MALAYSIAN ... we are in debt with Tun Ismail family.

I wonder .. is out there any politician who devoted his/her life purely for our country?? emmmm

Anyway, this story of Tun Ismail has been translated into a musical theatre, performing at KLpac till end of August. Just watched it tonight with Murni. We suppose to watch it last week . but could not get a good seat for that particualr nite .. hence we decided to watch it tonight .. who knows .. who were lucky enough .. Raja Perempuan Perak, Tuanku Bainun and the kerabat were among us. :-)

This price, RM20 is special for senior citizen (am I?) and student .. yeahh .. am enjoying the privillege of being a student.

Murni and me camwhoring before the play

She was the one with the most beautiful voice during the play

Tun Ismail's view which so relevant to current situation in Malaysia.

"Bumiputera special rights same as handicap in golf", one day Malays will think this special right as a shameful to them.

He was against the New Economic Policy which introduced by Tun Razak as he thought it will make Malays become very dependent .. well .. Tun Ismail quite true, not the policy itself which is not good .. but those people implemeting it ... using it as political weapon.

As Home Minister, when he introduced ACA, he mentioned that ACA will be under his ministry for few years and should be an independent body after that .. emm how long already .. now only the movement towards becoming an independent body.

August 8 2008

To make it easier for me .. this what was happened on this day ..

http://jasmdea.blogspot.com/2008/08/080808am-080808pm-at-080808.html

and

http://leblanc-etnoir.blogspot.com/2008/08/can-we-be-friends-says-ex.html

The conclusion .. it was a great night/morning.

2nd SUPERVISORY MEETING

It was yesterday at 1430 hour. I brought the print out. My feeling about it...

VLED

VERY LOW ENERGY DIET .. abrv. VLED. @ VERLY LOW CALORIE DIET

Got a chance to attend a talk by Dr Anthony R Leeds, at the Faculty of Medicine and Health Science, UPM.

VLED is a total diet replacement with an energy content between 450 kcal to 800 kcal, in the form of fortified liquid meals which provide vitamin, mineral, trace elements, essential fatty acieds requirement on a daily basis. This source of food usually administered over 12 - 16 weeks period, however recent guideline from UK National Institute for Clinical Excellence indicates this should be limited to 12 weeks.

This idea of VLED far back in 1920. It has faced an initial problem with the use of low quality and insufficient protein and inadequate vitamin & mineral supply. However has been corrected in early 1970s. The approach of VLED base on theory, where once body achieved a greater energy deficit than a low energy diet, this will result in greater rate of weight loss. Due to energy requirement is differ from each indivual rate of weight loss ~1.5 kg/week and ~2 kg/week for women and men respectively.

Follow up study for a minimum a year shown a significantly and dramatically drop in body weight after 6 month of VLED diet. However, this drop started to gain back another 10 kg and reach the same weight as those having other program (diet+exercise, drug therapy). The end point, VLED resulted the same as diet+exercise and drug therapy.

This regimen of diet is definately for short term as in
-preparation for bariatric and also other surgery
-where a clinical conditions limit control of energy intake pr energy utilisation such as in osteoarthritis.
-where best current therapeutic practice has failed to achieve desired outcomes such as in type 2 diabetes mellitus.

Personally, there is a doubt about this approach in T2DM management as this VLED kind of neglecting the actual cause of T2DM; physical inactivity and visceral obesity. Myself I'm still so much believe the best approach is lifestyle modification (diet and exercise). However, as the speaker also stated .. this VLED is for short term usage hence this regimen of diet might be able to give somehow an encouragement and motivation to those trying to reduce weight. Have to make sure, any patient undergoing this VLED is well informed about the weight gain after the significant loss.

Not to forget, the weight loss is due to very low energy intake hence body might switch its metabolic condition into hunger state, resulted in lower BMR., which is not so good. In any condition, exercise, need to be incorporated as muscle need to be activated. Weight loss due to VLED is a general weight loss meaning to say, body will loose both lean and fat mass. Loosing lean mass (muscular part) could lead to sarcopenia. Again, contradict to what shld be achieved in T2DM management.

Dr Anthony R Leeds

GYM HOUR

Have you ever went to the gym, and found out a gym member "USING" one particular bench or work out station for about an hour? Well .. I saw this today.
Was at the free weight area, about an hour before the peak hour, the here was one hamba Allah ni .... he was sitting on the multi function bench (basically for chest press n squat)..as usual this guy .. always with hand phone. He already on the phone when I reached there ... with his not so nice voice ... been talking like he was in his own personal room.

The clock ticking .. people came and left .. but he .. emm .. not even moved from that bench. Been talking on the phone (LOUD) ... for aboout 50 mins!

OMG .. definate I tag him as SELFISH! .. for 50 mins he was on the phone .. so many people can use that bench .. Gosh .. I really cant think of this situation .. WHT he talking there .. blocking others from using that bench.

Well .. 50 mins! gone .. then he resume his work out .. with that guided bench he did bench press with 15kg ... and gosh .. he can moan like having sex .... Guided/supported chest press with 15kg .. yet .. the moan like he was doing free weight chest press for 80kg .. come on! ..

He did moan as well for 22lbs biceps curl ... aiyooo .. wat la wei ... (hint) ..

The bench that Mr Moaning used

Another member ... a quiet person ... never seen him talk ... not that he mute I guess.. just the way he is ..

This fella ... put his towl on the incline chest press ... did one set .. then left for few minutes ... no one could use the bench till he really done his work out .. dushh ... wasting time and SELFISH too.

And one more thing .. this particular "mute" member ... always dimply left the weights he use everywhere .. nevere returned to where he took it. Adoiii ..

The bench that Mr Mute used

Whenever in the gym

1) Please be considerate .. other member paying the same fees as you do.

2) Please please return the weights accordingly (some PTs dont return the weight too sometimes)

3) Reduce/control your moaning .. :P .. keep it and show it to your partner that you enjoying the intimate session ... BUT not when working out in the gym.

ANOTHER WEEK GONE

PROPOSAL
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Almost done.. gonna email it to my supervisor on Monday then arrange the 2nd supervisory meeting ... finalized everything then could proceed with ethic approval application.

Need a model for some photo shoot and video recording .. any taker?

MOVIE
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Watched Sex and The City on the weekend night .. midnite show .. and did it alone .. it was great .. 2 things ...

1. Great to be able to go out for midnite show alone and still enjoying it.

2. Great movie .. really touch my heart with the friendship bond which being potrayed in the movie ... how 4 of them always there when they needed each other. Wonder if I could have that kind of friendship bond ... pray to God .. Amiin ..

Both pics curi from google

PERFORMING ARTS
=================

Watched worskhop performace title "The EDGE" at KLpac .. would like to say thank you to Murni for spending time with me there. :-)

Well dont forget our next appoinment ... Ismail: The Last Days. I'm really looking forward for this one. Glad I had read the book about former deputy premier of Malysia. (entry about the book dated February 24 2007).

BOOK
=====

I got this book from KINO on Thursday. Gonna love this book too. Same author for the book about Tun Ismail, The Reluctant Politician. By Dr Ooi Kee Beng. It is actually a compilation of his articles publised somewhere else about current political situation in Malysia.

Lost In Transition: Malaysia under Abdullah.

The latest book in my posession

The author (curi from jeff Ooi's)

GROCERRIES
===========

A weekly grocerries at my favorite place ... a weekend activity .. I like this place as it is near my aunty's place .. as going back to my aunty's also my weekend activity .. hence this particular supermarket become one of my favorite place to shop for my grocerries.

A point I wanna share here is ... sometimes the cashier might do mistake.. such as key in or scan the item double ... emm regardless purposely or mistakenly ... so do make it a habit to check bill everytime make payment, especially if buying more than one for the same item.

Today, she scanned my DHA gold eggs twice .. 1st .. she already key in the quantity (2) .. then for the second rack.. she scanned it again .. hence become 3 racks of eggs, where by .. I only took 2. Luckily I checked my bill, so I got back my RM4.85 which being extra charged on me.

So which supermarket am pointing at .. emmm

YEAH .. NOW I GOT IT

Been waiting for almost two weeks. Finally I got it today ... yeah ... now eager to make use of it ...

The book
Oh yeas . it comes with demo CD

The online purchasing statement.

# Item ID Description Qty Price Total---------------------------------------------------------------------------

1 9780736037839 The Scientific and Clinical Appl 1 91.00 91.00

ication of Elastic Resistance Book/CD Package

Shipping & Handling 19.50

Tax 0.00

Total 110.50

Note: Order is in U. S. dollars w/ international shipping.

So, this 352 pages book cost me RM 357.41

SEKOLAH KU SYURGA KU

Sound familiar? Sekolah Ku Syurga Ku ... My School is My Paradise .. was it?? hahahaha some might say yes .. some might say My School is My Hell .. anyway .. for me My School was My Paradise .. refer to secondary schooling time ..

Well after few years left studying life ... now back to school ..

This is the place where I will be spending my time untill end of 2010.

CASA IMPIAN versi KANTOR

Bosan dengan susun atur benda-benda kat pejabat .. lantas terfikir nak menyusunnya semula .. terfikir-fikir .. patutkah mmenyertai CASA IMPIAN errr ke CASA IDAMAN .. haha .. atau perlukan menggunakan khidmat Eric Leong ... emmm jawapannya .. TIDAK .. TIDAK .. untuk bilik sekangkang kera dah juga segala perabot kitar semula .. (recycle yea ... ) cukup la sekadar mendapatkan khidmat pakar runding hiasan dalaman diri sendiri namaya ..

Kekusaman yang jelas dan nyata ... kerusi tamu walaupun tidak pernah ada tamu ..
Rak buku recyle.... tali leher yang sudah laam tidak diusik...
Sungguhlah bersepah ..
Bosan sungguh meja-meja ini ...
Susahnya nak mencapai gelas dan sudu di atas kabinet besi .. tingkap yg jarang sangat dibuka dek kerana pemandangan yang tidak seindah mana di luar sana ...

Bosannnn....

Makanya ... Digagahkan diri ini menolak dan menarik ke sana sini .. lalunya .. selepas beberapa hari bekerja keras (keras ke?) dapatla jua menikmati ruang kerja dengan susun atur perabot yang baru.

Masih lagi pintu yang sama .. namun rak buku usang sudah dialihkan .. menutupi dinding kaca ..
Sesiapa yang pinjam buku .. pulangkan ye ...
Ruang di antara dua meja .. emm persediaan bagi menyambut bulan Ramadan lagi dua bulan ... emmm
"Browsing station" ...
Working/Study station ...

Kiddie corner ... :-)

Dapur mini yang .. senang nak capai gelas sudu bagai ... cerek dah ada .. emm nak beli hot plat rasanya .. nanti boleh masak .. emmm

NEW SCHEDULE from JULY till NOVEMBER

Just registered my new semester. WIll be commuting between KL-Serdang at leats once a week. Tuesday. Will be attending two classes there.

On Tuesday will be going to the faculty for the whole day .. (thanks God .. jimat petrol)

0900 - 1200 - PKK5202: LIPIDS IN HEALTH AND DISEASE
1400 - 1700 - PKK5201: ENERGY METABOLISM IN HUMAN NUTRITION

AND

Friday
1000 - 1200 - for PKK5201 Practical .. (wont be a real practical anyway) ..

Haizz still need to travel there twice a week.

LIFE ADAPTATION

Almost everyone feels the pain after the fuel price hike recently ... I'm one of them, eventhough not directly as I dont have my own car, still I do drive .. in other words .. still need to spend some amount of salary for fuel.

After that ... another price increase .. well not yet at the time I'm typing this entry but it will be soon .. the electric tarif, TNB need more benefits.

With these two items's price increased everyone knows.. everyone witnesses a lot more thing will be increase in term of pricing .. well (hopefully in term of quality too).

And, the latest "good" news is, gym membership will increase effective next month. I heard it would be from 3 - 5% ... gosh.

Adaptations that I will and I'm doing it now in attempt to curb with all these increment ...

1) Spend time in office as long as I could.
I do remember one of my senior collegue told me .. when he was studying in Manchester Uni, he spent most of his time in his lab and library. Save on electricity bill as he didnt need to on the house heater for such long hours. As for me .. I will try to do all my computer- and internet related job in office. Sound a bit selfish as after all I wont save the usage of energy ... just save my own electric bill. Cant help .. hahahaha ... gotta be more selfish nowadays I guess.

2) Maximise the gym membership.
Hahahaha .. FitnessFirst gonna increase the membership fees .. then I will increase my utilization. Bring laptop .. online and do some of my work in the gym while waiting for the class or work out session - save electric bill. Morning and evening shower at the gym ....some of my frieds know how long I spend my tiem for shower kekeke... I guess this adaptation will save on water bill.

Let see the compliance for these tow adaptations ..

needing YOU ....

Ketulusan Hati

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yg kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
Hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
Selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yg kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
Hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
Selalu

Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku
Oooo

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
Hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
Selalu

p/s: I need you ... of course not Anuar Zain ...

BEING A MALAYSIAN

After a year renting at my current place ...it make me feel really a part of Malaysia ....make me feel good BEING a MALAYSIA...

Wonder why???
Is it because of

KLCC view? emmm I do appreaciate this view at night during new year eve ...

Then?? KL tower view .. emmm never been there even been living in this plastic city almot 11 years
If not both of KLCC and KL Tower ... what make me feel so nice about renting at Bdr Baru Sentul... let see
Because of this?? can see UMNO building ... ohhh no no no ...
May be because of the varieties of worship place ...like this Budhist temple
Bdr Baru Sentul also has church ..emmm the yellow building with not so tall yellow tower ... a bit too far from the balcony
This is the most related to me ... a mosque .. well .. not like I go there every solat ... but at least .. can listen to azan .. ;-)
But .. actually ... the reason why I feel glad ...or "glad" particularly last week .. related to this ..
I was not sure what occasion they have ... but the preparation like a week already .. and the unsual music (hope is OK to call that ... as it is more related to religious thingy). Was wondering why the temple keep on playing unsual music/sound .. normally only on Friday night .. but last week .. almost everyday ..

The ultimatum was on the weekend ... since morning .. there was a marching like during Thaipusam ... this time not at Bt Cave .. but at Bandar Baru Sentul instead ... exactly in front of the place I'm renting ...

The crowd .... the traffic jam ....

At first I thought the event was at the big Indian temple .. but actually it was at the small temple in front of the big one ..

The crowd

Close up view


Another view
Post event view .. I guess this is a normal view in Malaysia ..

These are my housemate's "kids" ... I was wondering were they really enjoying the music or not .. but for sure .. my housemate was not .. :-)

"The Sound of Music" Sentul version... this video being dedicated to my housemate .. hehehehe to remind him how nice the music was ..

Lucky to be part of Malaysia ... all sort of things happened ..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

Tanggal 28 Jun 2008 ... bermula jua perjalanan hidup seorang teman sebagai isteri .. diharapkan dan didoakan isteri mithali hendaknya.

Jemputan dari beliau diterima hampir dua bulan yang lalu ... walaupun balik ke kampung pada hari Rabu yang lalu ... namun dicuba sedaya upaya untuk kembali ke kota yg tak disukai ramai ini untuk menghadiri majlis persandingan kawan ku yang seorang ini. Demi janji yang dikata ... harus dikotakan ..

Sebegitu lama tidak bertemu dengan pengantin perempuan .. kawan sewaktu bergelar kami bergelar siswa/siswi. Kawan sekelas .. selama tiga tahun .. setelah tamat belajar .. masing-masing membawa haluan. Almost 6 years havent met each other ... thnx Tini for inviting me ..

See .. both are so suit to each other ... bagai J'Co donut dibelah dua .. emm jgn dibelah2 ye ikatan yg dibina.

Semoga saling suap-menyuap ke akhir hayat.

Emmm lauk pengantin .. motif gambar ini diambil adalah ... emmm??

Cantik warnanya .. hiasan yang ringkas namun menarik

Haruslah nak interframe kan .. :-)